Complex Simplicity

I'm in a state of complex simplicity...no one really gets me...and the older I get the more I realize that I don't really want to be understood.

They steriotype me, they assume, they prejudge.
It really used to get to me but now I see that it's just the nature of the game.
As long as we live there will be people who disagree, who have it misconstrued, who make it their sole purpose in life to derail us with their negativity.
And because I know that it will make me stronger and because I know now that respect and trust have to be earned and not expected
I welcome it.

In the grand scheme of things your opinion is minor in a world so major.
Don't speak unless you can improve upon the silence.
Just my randomness, my thoughts, my truth...

My Nephew

When I'm with you
Skies are a different blue.

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There is so much on my mind that I just want to spill onto this page. I don't want to carry these feelings around and let them roll over into another day. I want to leave them right here; close this window and never see this negativity again.

So what do you do with a dream defered? I'm not quite sure how to approach mine at the moment. It seems that all at once everything's come to a halt-what to do, what to do? Do I stay? Do I move? Do I push further and continue business as usual, all systems go? Or am I gonna let recent bullshit and inconveniences slow me up and take the year off as suggested? Even writing that is painful...

My family...they don't understand. To them this is just another conversation, just another hope in a sea of wishes. But to me this is my life. I've sacrificed for it, cried over it, prayed about it. To them this decision is run of the mill but for me it's the beginning of the rest of my life.

My dream is all I have. I can't let it go. Hell, I can't even waitlist it. I guess what Einstein said rings true: When the solution is simple, God is answering.

Floating

Sometimes I float outside of myself
I get as high as a kite
I lace my shoes and tie 'em tight
So I don't fall, don't trip, don't stumble
I stay true, stay real, stay humble
Prepared to face the world full frontal
and as long as they'll bee
I'll bumble... :-)

Good Morning

Sometimes all we see or seem is but a dream within a dream...
-Edgar Allen Poe

With that said let's love hard, laugh often and live...to the fullest.
Good morning wOrld.

Everything has been so upside down lately. I don't even know what to say. I'm watching my world crumble before my eyes. Let the chips fall where they may.